It was supposed to be me and you against the world.
But you treated me like your enemy.
I was never safe with you.
From the first lie, the manipulation began.
Perpetuating a facade of love embodied.
Weaving tales of a forever that never began.
I was Never safe with you.
In the quiet moments, I pulled away.
Only to be sucked in like a rip tide
Taking me to the depths of my heart
To leave me there alone and in pieces.
Surrounded by fragments, memories and dreams
What could have been, became a never ending end.
I was NEVER safe with you
Over time seasons grew harsher and colder
With slivers of sun shining through
Enough to keep me holding on the the thought of you
Potential never materialized
Just lies on top of lies
Leading to the demise of my very essence.
My eyes became dark, losing their shine.
My heart grew cold and distant.
My mind torn between worry, fear, and sadness.
Looking in the mirror at this shell of me
The debris of my dreams, in pieces all around.
I’m tired. Drained of the very love I so freely gave.
Love pure, honest, and true
Too much in love to notice you not loving me too
Adding stress and responsibility and blame onto me
Stacking weight instead of easing my load
you were a parasite and I the host
sucking, pulling, draining, feeding
restoring yourself and I lost more.. more..
And more of me
I was never safe with you
You couldn’t be honest or true
You took away my ability to choose
You manipulated me into loving you
You never deserved me.
Not my time
Not my love
Not my resources
Not my prayers
Not my support
Not the safety or peace
Not my energy
because I was never safe with you.